Always in the hope of better days
Are there good days?
Yes, there definitely are. But these good days are so sparse that I almost forget until they occur. Though we can anticipate future events based on the sensory cues we receive from the environment. I am never prepared for a good day, just like the subject who volunteers for a cognitive experiment. When studying cognitive neuroscience, we make human participants or animals do a particular behavioural task. These tasks often involve the presentation of certain stimuli on the computer screen sequentially. The probability of the stimulus occurrence remains the same with each passing moment. In short, the subject can’t predict when the stimulus will come on the screen. The hazard function, which is the probability that a signal will occur given that it has not happened yet, is flat. Seems like my distribution of good days follows this exponential distribution with a flat hazard function. Only when the day ends is when I realise it was a good one. And the only thing left by then is the regret of not being able to enjoy it even more. In the wild, this delay between perception and action would have cost the predator a delicious meal whose scarcity makes it even more valuable. Maybe I am ignoring the fact that it was the sequence of events in which they happened that made this day into a good one. If I could have predicted this sequence of events, I would have turned every day into a good day. But if each day becomes a good one, will it remain good? Well, one can hope for better days to still feel the warmth that a good day leaves in your heart. Therefore, I always hope for better days…
P.S. today was a good day.